Crazy Mind

So yesterday I applied for a position for IKEA. It is a Human Resource Generalist position. It sounds on paper, well website, to be similar to what I do in my current job. I am so nervous. It has been over 5yrs that I have looked for a job and if you have looked for a job you know how scary it can be. I am trying to talk myself into not freaking out but true to form it is all I thought about today. I love Wal-Mart but am looking to I don't even know what just apply at IKEA. Ro did a lot of research and they are a very good company to work for soooo why not apply. I think for some people they think IKEA is cooler than Wal-Mart so thats why they think I should work there. I don't know I am in a funk, the winter blues, they are mostly black! Today one of our associates came into the office refused to speak to me, because I haven't called her son about his application, and went right to my training coordinator. She explained in spanish that I have nothing to do with it, that we are waiting to make all the temporary associates permant before we are hiring outside. It will only be a week before we can get him in for an interview but according to this woman, I can not be trusted. I was mad at first and then just felt like crying. Why is this lady bothering me, why does this little thing make me upset. People are the same everywhere and I deal with people who are always mad at me or don't trust me, but I am fine, just not today. I kept thinking today about if I left Wal-Mart what would it be like? How would I find the bargins everyday? My mind is out of control and all I can think about is this. This little thing that people do everyday. Either way I will not lose anything accept that crazy lady not trusting me.